I don’t love you… anymore.
He finally said them, we decided to sit down and talk about our relationship, about the way he’s been treating me – finally I said I told him that I don’t love him as much anymore and he came back with “I have no more love for you”… I said fine! that explains why you’ve been treating me the way you have, and I told him I would go stay with my parents or friends for a while. Like I said he’s a good dad so I’m not going to punish my daughter. He can see her whenever he wants… I will try to be friends with him – but for me that was the tipping point. He had sex with me a couple days prior – if you don’t love someone – tell them, don’t be intimate, don’t use that person for your personal desires and then treat them like crap!
As soon as I said I would leave, he started apologizing, he didn’t really mean it… blah, blah, blah… except that he did. He doesn’t love me – I’ve felt it for a while – and more importantly, if he does love me, why would he tell me he didn’t? because he wanted to hurt me? why would you want to play emotional games and hurt someone that you love? Why cause so much pain to someone? so whether he meant it or not – he said it and he’s been saying a lot of things like that for a while – like he wanted to break my spirit or something so that I would be emotionally dependent on him.
I’m taking a break to get some perspective. so we are getting seperated for a while and suprisingly, I’m not as much a reck as I thought I would be – I guess I could see this coming all along.
Tags: break of spirit, broken family, broken relationship, despair, emotional dependence, emotional mind games, I don't love you anymore, loss of love, verbal abuse
