Alone in the universe?

So, it’s the weekend and once again, I feel a bit hopeless and sad about my marriage.  My husband doesn’t help me around the house. Our daugther was fussy all week and there were a few nights when I was up all night with her. So today I was really tired, but I didn’t get any support from him. He actually went up to take a nap while I was downstairs feeding her. It never occurs to him, to say I’ll take care of her and you go take a nap.  I had to vacuum the floor three times today (after each meal) b/c she is at the stage where she wants to feed herself so it’s a big mess when she is finished.

We were supposed to go out today, but our plans changed b/c of the thunderstorm and he’s upset with me that I “ruined” the day.  He feels that the weekends are his time to relax – browses the net and plays video games a lot.   I had no idea that having a baby could change my life so much.  When he wants to have sex he is mister nice and very considerate – I feel like an idiot for even falling for it.

This is not what I expected when I got married. I feel like I married a completely different person that the man I’m now living with.  I’ve changed too – I know that (but I had a baby!!!) I’m now responsible for the health and well being of a small helpless child.  She has to come first – right? Am I wrong?  I don’t know anymore

Am I alone in this?

Where the hell did my husband go??

This is my first post. So here’s a bit about my life over the last 6 years.
I met the love of my life, fell in love instantly, had a perfect relationship over the 6 years. We were best friends, of course we argued… I’m not living in a fairy tale , but it was never anything major. We just respected each other and valued each other…. then, we decided to get married, which was also great – absolutely perfect wedding – very romantic wouldn’t change a thing! so what happend you may ask?

We decided to have a baby – we thought it would take us a while – so we started trying even before we got married. We were lucky and have a healthy, wonderful baby girl. She is the light of our lives and we both love her more than we could ever have imagined.

Again, you may be asking what’s my problem, my life sounds great – right?  WRONG!  My loving, sweet, respectful, adoring husband has been replaced by a complete jerk, a verbally abusive creep, who complains about everything from the state of the house, to the type of clothes I’m wearing.  Nothing is ever good enough for him.  He wants breakfast, lunch and dinner ready at his command, he wants me to iron his clothes, he wants me to look perfect all the time… basically, a good little housewife. 

So we clash, b/c I’,m not the type that wants to be controlled and for some reason it seems his main purpose in life right now is to try and control me.  I’m sick of the whole relationship. I feel like packing up my things, my daughter and leaving.  I never used to drink, but tonight I had a shot of Vodka just to get through the night.  I do not want to live like this. During the day when he’s a work I’m fine, I’m happy… but I dread when it gets close to the time that he gets home – it’s actually quite depressing.  I don’t know what to do. We tried counselling, but it doesn’t work.

has anyone ever been in a situation like this?  What did you do to cope?  Will this get better?  I miss my husband, I still love him – we were so happy. I don’t know what happened or where to go from here.

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